I have to say, that most of my
life I was impatient, when I wanted something thus immediately, get this or
that or experience this, or resolve something but immediately, because if not
immediately thus rather never and I let it go.
With this attitude, I let behind
me some unsolved things for a years, mostly in front of system and in front of authorities
of the system, and as this points are coming back and I have to face what I unsolved
before, everything is like lasting too long, all points which I solve took too
long.
The authorities have time, they
are no in rush and they do not require serving to citizens in best manner and
try and support to resolve task and issues best way. No, they have time and
once problems occurs, I realized within this, how much I am dependent on
decisions of the system and solutions systems provide.
I have to be patient, I have to “
wait “ how much is required to wait, I have to do necessary steps to resolve
it, but within this no nervous, no in rush, just be here, and step by step,
participate on resolving that what needs to be resolved.
I forgive
myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to do not resolve that I knew
and was aware that needs to be resolved.
I forgive
myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to be impatient in solving
tasks, issues, problems and want to do it immediately.
I forgive
myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to want to get things for
myself and fix things immediately with any time frame allowed.
I forgive
myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to do not see and realize
that things in system work in time line thus the very same way have to be
walked.
I forgive
myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to demand to fix issues I created
immediately.
I forgive
myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to be pissed off by the
necessity to have time go for resolving issues, problems I created.
I forgive
myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to be pissed off that I am
bound to time as my perception of past and future, instead of realizing that
only what exist is moment here and who I am here within this moment will have
consequence on each other moments.
I forgive
myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to define myself as impatient
and thus create within me perception and need that I require things to be done/happen
immediately.
I forgive
myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to do not like the fact that
solutions for fixing problems require time line, step by step, moment by
moment.
I forgive
myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to create within me rush and
demand solutions immediately instead of realizing and see the very mechanics
how things works.
I commit
myself to be patient in front of facing problems, issues, tasks and do not
create within me energy experiences in regards of steps required to make things
done.
Thanks,
Juraj
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