Day 142 : Positive and negative – Same shit

                The positive blind me to see what is part of myself as negative, the negative shows me what I became and why.

                The positive directs me away from me, the negative destroy and dishonor me.

                The positive, delude me and trap into illusions, negative shows how I judge myself and why.

No matter which polarity is within and as me, which polarity is still part of “my life”, it is the same bullshit and same energy and same addiction of energy.

                It is cool to see and realize, that positive and negative, is simply not real.

                I forgive to myself that I have accepted and allowed to myself to judge myself as positive and negative in separation from myself.

                I forgive to myself that I have accepted and allowed to myself to live in polarities of the mind as positive and negative, instead of be here present within and as the moment and see and realize that nothing of polarities is real, just delusions of the mind as desires, projections, ideas, believes, definitions, judgments, separation myself from myself because of accepted living as the mind.

                I forgive to myself that I have accepted and allowed to myself do not stop each moment here.

                I forgive to myself that I have not accepted and allowed to myself to see and realize that I am able to stop everything and anything which is of the mind.

                I forgive to myself that I have not accepted and allowed to myself to myself to see and realize that I am able to be directive principle of my life in self honesty with myself.

Thanks, Juraj

Day 10 : Blood is on my hand

                The river changed color, the water became red as the innocent children, men and women fall into a river, with heads shot right through. Their bodies remarkably tortured, punished, the screaming of voices in pain, dying in agony of war, echoed from rocks in surroundings.

Dying by hands of ignorance, dying by hands of those who refused to look, dying in name of God, for high purpose, for money, for power. I am one of those who just looked.

Thousands innocent people killed in most bizarre scenarios, the pain resonating in the earth and the earth is taking their bodies as they came from earth.

The rain washed the blood and the wind silenced the pain, silence on battle field took place, I just looked. I looked on the agony, suffering and horror which has been created, the question raised.

When this will be stopped? When I stop? This has not been enough to see and realize what I created? When the man will stood up and declare that the mankind will no fight each other anymore?

When the man, will see and realize, what the man is really doing? Killing the life without any movement within, without mercy, no regret and no shame in the man, as the man stand on battle field blinded by the glory of victorious war. But what the man actually won? Has been anything won? Just another torture all around, another war, just more pain and more.

Is the man strong enough, to suppress it and deny? Is the man strong enough, to stand and see directly what the man created?

How long, this will continue? How long and how much people must be killed for man to realize, that inevitably, this simply must end?

The man has beginning and the man has an end, will the man realize?

I looked and I say, the world we live in is insane, man is insane and the man is the most dangerous species on this planet, and what the man is doing must be stopped, who will stand up first, the planet, or the man?

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself the war to exist.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself the fight to exist.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself the war exist as attempt to kill life.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself the war exist as ego and competition where the winner get all as victorious and defeated are doomed and tortured and have to submit as slaves.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to create from competition ego and from this allow and accept create war.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to kill others in various ways to make them more suffer, to feel them more pain, and to get them down in deeper agony.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to attempt to kill life.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to attempt to kill me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to want destroy life.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to be blind to that what I allowed and accepted toward life.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to accept war as valid point how to get resources which belong to other country.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to accept war as excuse of economic growth.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to do not see and realize the pain, suffering and dishonor towards the life created during the war.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself the war to exist as manifestation of abuse of life.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to fight for victory and do not look on consequences which this victory brings.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to fight for glory.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to fight for being noticed.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to fight as attempt to make myself more than what I really am.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to fight as manifestation of ego superimposed on sexuality and sexual fantasies and desires.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to fight as point of getting sex.

I commit myself to investigate each point I allowed myself to fight and stop.

Thanks, Juraj