Once I
postponed very specific task, I had all day to complete it but I postponed and
postponed, I knew what I am doing, I was aware that I will have to complete it
anyway, the deadline was next day.
I went out at the evening, and I
still had this unfinished task in my mind, it popped up and still coming back
to my mind, like words “ I have to finish that, I have to make sure I will
complete it, I can’t go sleep – I need to finish it, I can’t stay here, I need
to complete it, I need to complete it and make sure it is done” and at the
places I was, and people I spoke with, still this words coming into my head,
and even the words I spoke was about this unfinished task and that I have to
complete it and that I can’t stay here and enjoy my presence.
At the night, when I completed
it and it was done, I saw what I allowed and accepted to myself, and how I
allowed remaining in the past and not be here.
As the procrastination is
allowed, one is actually saying “ I would rather remain in the past as the past
is what I am bound to and that is all what I know, I am giving my power away
and I am giving this power to my mind as instance which is my dictator and
which knows better where I should be, and it is in the past. “
I forgive myself
that I have allowed and accepted to myself postpone and procrastinate tasks,
things which I know needs to be done and completed.
I forgive myself
that I have allowed and accepted to myself to be bounded to the past through procrastination
and postponement of tasks and issues which I can solve immediately and have it
done.
I forgive myself
that I have allowed and accepted to myself to like postpone and procrastinate
things and through this like remaining in the past and not be here.
I forgive myself
that I have allowed and accepted to myself to test how far I can procrastinate
and postpone things which need to be done.
I forgive myself
that I have allowed and accepted to myself define myself through and as my
ability to postpone things and complete it at critical moment.
I forgive myself
that I have allowed and accepted to myself enjoy postpone and procrastinate
that which needs to be done and my very self definition and statement of ego
that I will not do it now or immediately and that I can postpone it as this is
my choice and thus remain in the past as the mind.
I forgive myself
that I have allowed and accepted to myself to give my power away to my mind
through postponement and procrastination as to instance which I allowed to be
my dictator and thus remain in the past.
I forgive myself
that I have allowed and accepted to myself to make form my mind more than me
through postponement and procrastination and thus diminish my self value, my
direction and who I really am.
I forgive myself
that I have allowed and accepted to myself to be directed by the mind through
postponement and procrastination and thus empower mind and take over me and
remain in the past.
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