I realized, as a young boy, as I
saw a females, they movements, speech, attitude, I placed women on the side as –
they are better than males, they are the more soft gender, they are more good persona.
I placed woman at certain manner
at pedestal in front of me, and I adored women as the being which seemingly are
better as males and I wanted to be a better persona because I saw the “ goodness
“ in females.
I was wrong.
I forgive
myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to want to change myself and
be better person because of women thus I forgive myself that I have allowed and
accepted to myself to want to prove to women that I can change and be better
person instead of realizing and seeing that the starting point to change myself
have to be self, as who I am as breath of life here, thus I forgive myself that
I have allowed and accepted to myself to want to change myself and be better
person because I placed women as better than males and thus allowed and
accepted to myself to looking upon the females thus I forgive myself that I
have allowed and accepted to myself to perceive, think and believe that females
are more than males as I placed them as more than me, thus I forgive myself
that I have allowed and accepted to myself to think and believe about myself
that I am inferior towards females and that I am less than females instead of
realizing that I am equal and one with them thus I forgive myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself to fear to speak with females directly and to
fear what females will think about myself and to fear how they will behave
towards me if I will speak to them directly thus I forgive myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself change myself because of females instead of
seeing and realizing that my starting point to change myself have to be self as
me as who I am as breath of life here thus I forgive myself that I have allowed
and accepted to myself to live the desire to be a better person in front of
females instead of realizing that it is me who have to wants to be better in
front of myself and not in front of others and thus I forgive myself that I
have allowed and accepted to myself to perceive the females as my savior and desire
and want to be in presence of females as my savior of being a better person,
instead of realizing that through such desire I am led just be desire and not
as self movement as self realization thus I forgive myself that I have allowed
and accepted to myself to desire to be with a woman as my savior and some one
who will show me how to live , what to do as my mother showed me through
polarities system how I should live and what I should follow as good and bed
and how I should behave towards females thus I forgive myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself to behave towards females as polarity friction
between good/bad instead of being here and expressing myself here within and as
moment of my breath, thus I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted to
myself to do not stand for myself and for my breath as my breath here but just
follow program and script how I should behave in front of females.
Thanks,
Juraj
