After specific scenario I faced
with my flat mate, I experienced backchat as my mind telling towards people how
people are idiots, specifically as the point of their blindness, as no actual
understanding even what they speak, and this was because of point of anger and
blame directed towards myself, by that persona.
I had no reaction during
conversation, just several periods after this back chat came up, and the seeing
others as unlimited idiots, as they even are no able to communicate.
Interestingly, because of one
event, I thrown all people into one bag and marked them as idiots within my
mind, because and by this I can stand separate by them and see them as stupid
and myself not. Therefore polarity of superior and inferior came up, as those
which do not understand what they became are seeing as less and thus myself as
more, specifically those where lack of communication skills has been
experienced and seen.
Within this, I realized that I was
exactly the same. I had no ability to communicate effectively, I was not able
recognize what is going on within me, I didn’t understood why I said what I said,
I had no clue what it is to direct myself and my words, and so, and by this, I see
that I judged myself because of who I was in my past.
This judgment is and as the
point of not wanting to stand equal and one with those who direct towards
myself their anger, their blame, their issues which they do not solved, and
thus do not want to participate on anything with them.
The point of this judgment also
states, the perception of myself being tired to explain so called educated
people the simplest points of behaviors, patterns and continuously explain even
basic words and their meaning. In this judgment is merged point of seeing
people which claim they are educated and have universities and claim their wisdom
as absolute retards. As with this type of people I experienced most difficult
conversations, because of the point of effective brainwashing which has been applied
on them during studies, and simply I have no intentions to fight, but I saw
people like to even during speech, and thus validate their ego, and I simply
refuse.
In this, I forgot I was exactly
the same.
The education which has been
applied on each one of us, has been the theft of the true wisdom and replaced
by lies and dogmas, thus each one of us simply needs to be re-educated, as the
education system is abuse of each participant in such system, simply, because
of lies being presented as true, thus submission and acceptance of students of
such lies is inevitable if they want to live in and follow the system, as
system is what each one of us became.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to judge others as unlimited idiots and absolute
retards as the point of creating myself as superior and them as inferior and
thus exist within and as mind design of superiority and inferiority.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to judge others as unlimited idiots and absolute
retards as the point of separation from them and thus from myself and do not
want to be involved into their issues they are facing and thus do not want to
support them because of accepted and allowed creation of perception of myself
being tired to explain over and over the same points to everyone.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to judge others as unlimited idiots and absolute
retards as the point of separation from them because of perception and judgment
of them as being perfectly brainwashed and by this forgot that I was exactly
the same and thus I am able to assist and support them in issues they are
facing.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to judge others as unlimited idiots and absolute
retards as a point of not wanting to stand equal and one with those which are
directing towards myself their anger, blame and issues they experience, not
seeing and realizing that what is going on within them I can support and assist
them to see, realize and understood why such events are taking place.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to judge others as unlimited idiots and absolute
retards as a point of my own anger towards myself and who I was in the past and
why I became who I was and wanting to separate from the past.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to judge others as unlimited idiots and absolute
retards as a platform to make from myself more and them to be less because they
have no clue what they experience and by this wanting to be the one who is
superior and thus have power over them, as I see and realize that have power
over those in fear is simple, not seeing and realizing the real power is to
stand equal and one with everyone and everything in and as breath and if
possibility of assist and support is seen thus do so.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to want to separate from my past, and from the
future, not seeing and realizing that this is impossible as the past do not
exists and future is not created as only moment of here is real and only this
one moment will exist and remain always.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to do not see and realize that superiority and
inferiority is not real, it is just design of the mind as make believe as what
is real is in equality and oneness of physical.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to blame those in my past for that what they had
done unto me, to blame them for such abuse, manipulation and lies directed
towards myself, not seeing and realizing that blame and judgment is the point
of separation from myself as others, not seeing and realizing that I became exactly
the same as abuser, manipulator and liar and parasite of the life as parasite
of physical, and thus it is my responsibility to assist and support everyone
possible to stop such behavior and start to live as equals.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to participate on back chats of the mind and by
this direct towards others my judgment as point of wanting to separate myself
from them and do not want to stand equal and one with them and thus with
myself.
Thanks,
Juraj
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