Day 53 : Clarity

                Self forgiveness brings clarity to ones speech, self forgiveness brings clarity to ones words, within and as self forgiveness one can see what has been allowed and accepted to live, to oneself, to others, to nature.

                Clarity is seeing without any shadow of doubt, without any thought in the head, without any reaction, clarity is here where always clarity was, but paradox we was never here.

                Clarity is speaking without any desire, without any fear, clarity is expression of that what is here.  It is speaking directly, just expressing myself here, as clarity as what is me.

                Clarity – is self honesty.

                I am clarity of me, I am purity of me, I am innocence of me, I am stability of me.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to blind myself in living in and as a mind, as a system which can’t see because systems looks through knowledge and information, where systems looks only as EGO and self interest, thus system can’t see a shit thus I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to live within and as my own self dishonesty, protecting my dishonesty, running away from myself, do not wanting to look into me, do not want to see what I have allowed and accepted to myself to live, to became, to express within and as dishonesty of me, instead of standing up for myself, standing up for myself as who I am here as life, giving value to myself where all parts of me are considered equally, where nothing of me is left behind, where all of me is revealed, seen and understood, within and as clarity of me, clarity as who I am as I see into me what I became.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to blind myself with knowledge and information I get from this world, what has been said to me, what I heard and what I seen, instead of looking into me and see directly what is here within and as me.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to limit my seeing and clarity of that what I see with my mind, with my desires and my wants, needs as EGO of the mind I became, where I diminished my seeing only on that what EGO wants, what I became, and thus not seeing what Is here, not realizing that only that what is here is real within and as moment of physical expressing itself.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to diminish my seeing and my clarity with information and knowledge of this world I got during my life time here, not realizing that any and each word I heard carried emotional/feeling charge of energy ones spoken and thus I copied this emotions/feelings into me and defined my vocabulary, my speech, my voice tonalities, the words I am expressing with emotional charge copied from others and not seeing myself within this, losing myself through coping the words and emotions from others and not expressing myself as the words as who I am within and as moment of my and as  breath here.

Thanks, Juraj

The choice

                I believed that I choose what I want to experience and what I want to live. I believed that it is me who decides. It was not so. It was decided before I did, through my submission to the mind.

                As I looked on my past, believes I lived, ideas and perceptions, judgments I threw on others, it is clear it was not me who was the direction. The mind was. Each component of the mind I allowed, therefore I submitted and I didn’t lived and expressed myself, but just the illusions of the mind.

                If there is a desire, which directs, I am less than the desire, if there is a thought which directs, I am less than a thought, because, to be directed by something which is just an illusion, mean total submission to the mind, inferiority. Mind is the master, mind was the master of myself.

                This changed, as I changed, still I see what I walked and what I will. Now I enjoy that I do not go into reactions, into judgments, I enjoy how I slowed down and clarity I experience. I enjoy myself in the moments I am here.

                It is so cool to not have reactions on my environment within me, do not react on what people speak, just only direct what I face in very moment and thus direct myself.

Thanks, Juraj

Ego as mind - Breath as life

                I was wrong in my life many times, and wanted to be right. Wanted to win and prove to myself that I am right, that what I do, speak, in what I participate is me and that I am right.

                This was not me, this was living and walking my Ego, where the mind defend itself, own position within the system through various aspects, mostly linked to backchat which is silent but I heard it.

                The arguing, the fight, the statements, many times I heard and many times I followed and I allowed to myself be blinded and not to see what is here. Any thought which I allowed, had consequences in my life. I thought before that thoughts do not have effect, that I can thought what I wish to and dream what I want to dream, etc, I trapped myself, by my own thoughts into living something which is not me.

                Each one thought has consequences, each one is illusion, and each one thought is not of life. Interestingly, ego plays mayor role in it, when I thought and believed that I am that what is trying to defend the position within me, I believed that ego is me, it is not.

                I tried during the conversation to do not allow any thought which could trigger my backchat, interestingly this was cool as I was able to see how much times I trapped myself into backchating within me, arguing, ach, and for what? For my ego, which is not real, because if I do not allow it, it do not exist, any speech within is simple not real.

                It is so simple, anything which pops up in the mind, simply is not real. And has nothing to do with reality.

                The breathing is assisting amazingly, to stop and let go, to walk what needs to be walked, now I see, that each time I am not aware of my breath so that each very moment I am illusion and not real.

                This is process to walk to be breath as expression of life, stable and clear without anything which could deceive, delude, and compromise.

                The breath is stability, the breath is clarity, the breath is real, the breath allows seeing and the breath allows living.

                Be the breath, be the life. Walk the process of breath as life.

Thanks, Juraj