The words are innocent

                Today I was on conference call with my French co-worker and several folks from customer side.  Call was from certain perspective hard and long as lot of issues we talked about, and at the end they switched to French language for a while to have better communication as it is their native language.

                I do not understand in French a word, so I was just silently listening, as I was hearing the words I realized interesting point.

                As I had no clue what they speaks, It was for me just words, those words couldn’t cause within me any reaction, judgment, thought, or likeness or dislikes, nor perception of positive or negative words, also I couldn’t make any idea or believe about their speech.

                As I have nothing programmed within me in relation to sounds/words spoken in French I realized how perfect the programming of humans is just through words/sounds.

                The judgments or perceptions of the words, not seeing what the word is by itself, what the word really means, but what one thought what this or that word is according own programming and own judgment of the words.

                I faced many times, when people said to me, that this or that word is negative, or wrong, or ugly.  And many times I explained that simply such a word do not exists. There is no ugly word in this existence, and there is no wrong or negative, it is just word, and the word has some meaning and the word stand for something. That’s all.

                And you know what? You like to fuck, so why you judge the word FUCK as ugly? And you like to shit, cause when you have to thus you have to, and why the fuck you judge the word shit as wrong? Is wrong when you shit? And it is ugly when you fuck? It is bad when you fuck? Wake up.

And the word fuck have many meanings and stand for various different explanations within context spoken, so this word is just a word, like apple, like orange, like stand or sit.

                This is the same with positive or negative perception of the words.

                So maybe you will realize that if you judge some word, it is you who is wrong, not the word. The words are innocent.

Thanks, Juraj

               

               

Nasty – you mangy liar

                The second scenario from mentioned day of yesterday’s writings was, in shop with sales parson.

                I was paying and I wanted to give to that persona the banknote with coins, to match the price and receive back just two coins, to make it easier for her and also for me, I perceived this as good solution.

                She replied that it will not help to her that she has no 10 euro cents and 20 euro cents thus she can’t accept it and she just took the banknote. I said ok, no problem.

                At my surprise, she is giving me at the moment 2 euro coin and four 10 euro cents coins. I asked her, why she lied 30 seconds ago that she do not have those coins, and now she is giving it to me.

                I was calm in my question, she do not replied anything which will clarify the situation or answer my question, that maybe she was wrong or anything thus I continued, and at my surprise, in my life I never said loudly but calm within me, publicly, directly to her – Do not lie, why you lie? Do not lie you mangy liar.

                And I turned back and get out of that shop.

                Yes I could choose different words but I said what I said, at the evening, I was speaking about this situation to one guy, and here I noticed interesting thing, that I became angry for a moment while I spoke about this, not at her, but at the way how she lied. Why she lied if in 30 seconds this lie has been revealed? She has to be aware of it, hm, maybe not, whatever.

                And within this, I realized why I become angry while speaking about this situation. She was possibly not aware at all what she said, she could have in the head many possible thoughts and thus in her speech she could be really innocent, from my perspective, I was pissed off how she lied. Why to bother to lie if this will be revealed after few moments?

                My perception of lying is, that if someone lie, thus present it the way that it will be not revealed thus it will be perceived as true, that’s the point if someone is lying. And from this, I realized, that I perceive myself as one who can really professionally lie, and thus that I am more than those who can’t lie in such good manner.

                What a fuck up. Just because I can lie better it do not makes me more than anybody else, I am equal to any persona, no matter how they lie, behave, speech or act. That’s simply irrelevant, because each one has different intentions and I do not know a shit about it.

                Relevant is, who I am within the situation, what I see and how I direct my words, my interactions, and how I behave and how I express within moments.

Thanks, Juraj

Nasty – Move fucking bitch

Some days ago, I experienced one day, events where like everything from beginning to the end was against me.

Situation, scenarios, and interactions with people like everybody and everything wanted to make me angry. I was calm and each event I breathe through, except two.

The woman driver in front of my car, driving really slowly, blocking me with her car, making chaos, and direction light turned on to the left but driving in right side.

First time in my life I allowed myself loudly to shout on somebody in the car, I shouted loudly that she is a fucking bitch.

Moment after that I realized, what the fuck I am shouting on her? I do not know a shit why she drives so slowly, why her direction light is turned on to the left but not changing the direction, I do not know a shit how much she is experienced driver, and maybe she is just looking for something here or searching for somebody whom she should pick up. Thus I let go this moment and then forgave myself to being nasty on her, even she was not aware of it.

I realized, why I allowed myself to shout on her, because of the perception of myself that I am good driver, and that the half of the nation should gave back their driving licenses because they drive “ badly “. The perception that I am more than them just because I faced more situations thus my behavior while driving is different, just because I drove more roads, or more kilometers, from this the perception that I am more has been born.

And, I am not. I am not more than anybody else in their own car, each one of us just have different skills and different experiences while driving, thus each one of us drive the car according the best skills we have in such moments.

Thanks, Juraj

Misinterpret misinterpreted

            Recently, I was blamed that I lied when I provided certain information to one persona. I didn’t. I was sure that what I am telling is true. I was sure that I am just passing what I was told thus I can’t lie. It was not so.

            I asked question, the reply was not direct answer to my question but I within my mind took it as it was and thus I believed what was told was direct answer on my question.

            I was asked this information and I provided it to other persona, and this persona blamed me that it can’t be true because the guy who provided this information couldn’t say that.

            I asked him, how many times I can do specific thing, he replied that each time I came. Thus I interpreted this as ok, if I came more than one time I can do it therefore more than one time. This makes sense.

            In the question was missing one the most important word – day, per day, how much times per day. According rules they have, it is just once per day. Thus I was not aware of it.

            Thus I was asked why I am doing it second time per day, as I came second time that day, and I said that I was told this information thus I am doing it.

            Conflict arises and I was blamed as liar. Actually, I didn’t lie.

            Then I realized, it was me who asked not direct and not specific question, thus the answer which I get was also not direct and specific.

And within this, I took it as valid answer and therefore misinterpreted what was told, and I created conflict just because, I did not ask directly at first. Second, I took something which was not valid answer on what I wanted know as valid and acted according it.

After that entire scenario, I discussed this with persona I had conflict with, that it was just misunderstanding and misinterpretation.

            I realized, how crucial is to keep track with what was said and not shape any word or words spoken, how crucial is to speak directly and ask directly, with required specificity to avoid possible misinterpretation of the words or to avoid misinterpretation of the meaning which one asked or replied.

            How many conflicts I could prevent, how much I created just because I was not direct and specific with my words?

            And this just show, how easy it is to complicate things, when one do not direct words in required specificity, when one shape things within own mind or do not take attention of words spoken, or make assumptions.

So I stop this.

Thanks, Juraj