Self forgiveness - I forgive to myself

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because of some reason within me.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I defined myself according smoking.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I define it as free will.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I wanted to defend my right to smoke.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I believed my mind that smoking is heavenly.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I wanted to socialize with " others " through smoking.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I wanted to be perceived as free " person ".

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I wanted to fit into society according smoking.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I wanted to be perceived as person who has money because I smoke one of the " most popular and expensive " cigarettes.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I perceive it as “heavenly " after I eat something or after the sex.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I wanted to build my personality based on smoking.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I defined myself as something special when I smoke exact blend of cigarettes.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I wanted to be accepted by others as I perceived smokers as more open people.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I "love " the taste of smoke from cigarettes.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I connect the smoking with " special " places.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I connected smoking with my stability.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke because I wanted to prove to the others that I can breathe the smoke to my lungs.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke to avoid making fun from myself by "others" that I do not breathe the smoke to my lungs when I smoked.

I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to smoke to defend myself from making fun by " others " that I smoked only to my mouth.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I can get money from casino.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I am subject to casino.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I can consistently generate money in casino instead of realizing that consistency cannot be sustainable in casino.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I need to generate money through casino instead of realizing, that another ways are available for generating the money to support myself and others in need.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that it is possible to generate money through casino.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to get my power back to mind and participate in mind in casino.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I am less than if I spent money in casino.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to act based on thoughts, instead of realizing that I am not thoughts.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to believe that casino is the way how to generate the money.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I need to generate the money.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not stand for myself instead following the mind, I am not the mind, I am breath, equal and one.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to want to return to casino.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to desire to go back to casino.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to push myself to go to casino.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not stand for myself and for life.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to define myself according to casino.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to believe in casino instead of realizing that it is simply another religion system.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to create my own gods in my mind and followed them.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to create my own believes and definitions and followed them.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to create my own secrets and tried to keep them hidden.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to follow what my mind showed me, instead of realizing that I am not the mind, I am life, equal and one to all.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to define me according the amount of money which I lost in casino.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to visit the casino, instead of realizing that with such act I am visiting the chamber of prayers, another believe system.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to want to excuse the visiting of casino with the money I generated.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to hope that I can generate the money consistently in casino, instead of realizing that money are simply fake.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to give my power to my mind to direct me to casino, instead of realizing, that I am the directive principle, I direct, I am.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to go to casino every day, justify this visits and make from visiting casino my own behavior, instead of realizing, that with such act I am deliberately deceiving myself, giving my power to the systems and giving myself for granted to the " hands" of systems.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to believe that any god exists.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to create from casino my own god.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not use the money for those which are in need of money.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not use money effectively and support the systems, instead of realizing that I am life, I am here , and I direct the usage of money to support myself and support life.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to keep the casino as the memory within myself as the chamber of god, instead of realizing, that I am not the memory, and I am not defined by the memories within me, I release them and no more visiting of casino. I am here, I am life.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I am some think more if I do not have university degree but I have job where all another are with degree.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to judge people witch go to university.

I forgive to myself that I allowed and accepted to myself to think that I need to contact "Bernard" or "Sunnite" if I want to go to desteni farm, instead of realizing that wherever I am, I am here, as breath, equal and one to all.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think, that if I want to move or go somewhere, that I need also move my body, instead of realizing

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I am limited, instead of realizing that what is limited is mind, not me.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I can delude myself, instead of realizing that deception no more exist within me, I am here, as breath, as life, as all, equal and one.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that if I fall that I am something less then instead of realizing that falling shows me how I can stand, here, one , equal to all.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to wait on "god".

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to create idea about the " god "

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that this idea and believe about the "god" exists.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to worship the " god "

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I am less than the " god "

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I need the " god "

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I am not one and equal to myself as god.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself that I am eternally enslaved to idea of " god "

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to believe in knowledge and information about the " god "

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I am here because " god " wanted from me to be here, instead of realizing that I am here, one and equal to all, as life, as breath, as god.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I must suffer for " god "

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that " god " left me here, instead of realizing that I am here, equal and one with all existence, but not defined by the existence.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I need consciousness systems and accepted way of living for this system.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I need to " prepare " the way for "god " coming, instead of realizing that this was just separation within myself and idea and believe within myself.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to live as locked living expression of " who I am" as system.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I need to live as locked expression to worship the " god " and be worthy for him instead of realizing that I am here, as life, as one, equal to all, and nothing like worshiping, following, more then or less then exists.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to limit myself.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to limit myself towards something which looks external.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I am limited.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that limitation exists.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to feed the limitation within me, instead of realizing that only mind can be limited, and I am not the mind therefore I am not limited.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to become the limitation of the mind instead of realizing, that with such act I am giving myself for granted to limitation system of the mind and I am not the mind, I am here in every breath, equal and one.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to live as limitation of the mind, instead of realizing that I am not the mind therefore I am not limited, I am here as breath.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that limitation is necessary for living, instead of realizing that the mind needs the limitation, I am not the mind.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to move within gridline structure, instead of realizing, that I am not limited to the gridline structure and therefore I can move any direction as I am life, here, equal and one.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to perceive the grid line structure as my limitation, instead of realizing that I am not limited, therefore I can move where ever I want, as I am equal and one to anything in existence.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to compare myself with others in process, instead of realizing, that I walk my process alone, as others walk their process alone, and I cannot compare myself and my process with others, as I created my own shits and they also, therefore our processes could be different, different points needs to be released, and that's it. I am here, as breath, as life in every moment.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I can be tired.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that tiredness exists.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to define myself as tiredness, instead of realizing, that tired can be only mind, and I am not the mind, I am here, as breath, as life , equal and one.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I can feel tiredness, that I can feel to be tired, instead of realizing that I cannot be tired as life as breath.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to perceive that if my body need rest that I am tired, instead of realizing that simply my body need rest, but I am not tired as tiredness do not exist, it is only product of the mind and I am not the mind.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that my perception of necessity for resting of my body is my tiredness, instead of realizing that it is the mind which is tired, not myself, I am here as life as breath.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that breathing can be hard, instead of realizing, that I am the breath as life, here.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that when my body need rest and sleep, that I also need to sleep and not to be aware of myself, instead of realizing, that only the mind need sleep, not me, as I am here as life as breath.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to not be aware of myself when my body sleep or rest.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not be awake when my body sleep.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to fall to sleep and not be aware of myself, instead of realizing, that mind need to sleep and regenerate itself, I am not the mind therefore I do not need to fall to sleep and I do not need to do not be aware of myself during the sleeping.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not wake up from the bed immediately in one breath.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to snooze when I wake up.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think when I wake up instead of realizing, that with such act, mind is activated and trying to lead me and direct me during the day, I am here as life as breath and I am the directive principle.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think that I need to sleep, instead of realizing that only my body needs to rest, therefore sleep but I can be aware during resting of my body.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to think and participate in the mind with statement that I need to sleep, instead of realizing that it is polarity friction of the mind, and I am not the mind, I am here as breath as life equal and one to all.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself do not notice my body.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself do not care about my body.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to create distance from my body, instead of realizing that I am here as breathe as physical body.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not touch my body.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not hear my body.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not love my body.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not accept my body, instead of realizing that I am here, as breath as my body, here.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not enjoy my body.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to judge my body according the skiing of my body, according the spots on my body, instead of realizing, that

I am here as breath as my body therefore no judgments about my body.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not be intimate with my body in each breath as I am here.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to separate myself from my body.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not be aware of my body parts, as legs, hands, head, and body whole as one and equal to all.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not move within my body.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not explore my body.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not like my body.

I forgive to myself that I accepted and allowed to myself to do not be equal and one with my body.

Self forgiveness – why self?

                If I experience/experienced some judgment/emotion/thought/perception/sense/fear/etc, thus it means I created it. For whatever reason, for whatever point, it is me who created this experience, it is me who allowed and accepted this.

                People have tendency to misplace their own experiences and project and blame some external person/point for that what they experience. It is not so.

                If I fear something, it is me who is creating this experience and this fear, because for example:

As I was young I was bitten by wasp, and it hurts, I didn’t like that experience of pain, I was bitten also another time to my tongue, when I ate some fruit, and this experience of pain was really bad, and there was some another places in time and space when some wasp bite me. Each time I was aware that it is nothing crucial and I will be ok, but as this experience repeated over and over, I started to charge this experience as negative and connect to this small being “ not likeness “ and judge this being as bad or useless or and I started to create within me fear towards small being, called wasp.

And this being is many times smaller than me, and I can smash and kill this being and by curiosity, it is me who feared this and not the wasp. Wasp cannot do me anything at all, except of some experience of pain which will my body cure in few days. When I saw the wasp, the picture of this triggered automatic reaction in my body to run away, or to move out from the presence of the wasp. Strange, how irrational this is.

So, who was the one responsible for created fear? The small wasp which I see flying around, or me through my past experiences?  Obviously, it was me. Only me,  nothing else.

That’s why self – forgiveness, because each experience I/we have, I/we are responsible.

And self forgiveness, it is just tool, how to release oneself from accepted and allowed behavior, judgment, emotion, how to free self from the never ending cycles of imprisonment in judgments, fears, ups/downs, reactions, imagination, living in the past and in the future, to became the living being which live here, as life not bounded by anything.

Thanks, Juraj

Self forgiveness

                Firstly I understood forgiveness from religion concept that something wrong had to happen and than it could be forgiven. If I do something wrong than I ask for forgiveness or I forgive to someone.

                But let’s have a look, if nothing wrong/bad exists and nothing good/right exists from polarity point of view, how than I could do something bad or judge myself as bad if it is just my perception, my judgment, and therefore my own created sense of sin or guilt ? And ask for forgiveness?

                How can I forgive someone else, if the behavior of others is based on their own judgments and has nothing to do with me?

                But if I look on this from perspective of self forgiveness, it is different. Bernard was/is/will be right about this point, that self forgiveness is procrastinated, avoided, laughed on, avoided, denied, etc.

                Because, self forgiveness has really nothing to do with any concept which humanity created, especially nothing with any religion.

                Firstly, I really didn’t understand at all why I should forgive to me anything, I thought I am fine. I was not. I started to use self forgiveness, I started to write, I started to speak, and mostly I experienced huge tiredness, immense that I was hardly able to hold myself awake or move the body or do anything, I simply had to rest. Effect of the mind, where through self forgiveness mind is “ hacked  “ .

                I mostly wrote the self forgiveness points and sometimes I spoke it, I see that to do it as combination - write it and then speak it is more effective.

                I went through the points Bernard mentioned in the book, mostly in my case it was procrastination with self forgiveness, avoiding it, or wanting to hold to some specific point and not to let it go, or not doing self forgiveness complete, or even abuse it, or condition my self forgiveness, or use it only on things within me which I didn’t liked and not on things I liked, or forgive only specific thoughts and some remained as part of me.

                Interesting if one comes to the point, to forgive oneself, and let it go as the past which is not here. Most effective I was in regards of my emotions, things which I judged within me and things which I really didn’t liked to experience as anxiety, fear, imagination, sexuality, perception of my body, thoughts and judgments, with breathing also, of course.

                Still I see, many more points will come, as I am aware which points within me I was not able to transcend and I am still holding into, also I am aware what I was able to change.

                I have to say, as I slowed down, how my daily experiences, moments, reactions, thoughts, etc, started to changing and stopping, I started to see differently people around me, my environment and firstly, I started to see differently me.

                Mainly, my experiences, the calmness which started to enter into my life, rush and energy is fading away, slowly and surely my inner peace started to enter into my life, and still, I am saying, I am far from the point where my inner peace will be wholeness as silence as me.

                Once I look on my life, this is the way which is really worth, self forgiveness is the way one can open the door for inner peace to enter into one’s life, to open the door for real self to stand and let go the fake personalities.

                In last period, I wrote lot of SF points, I didn’t publish it, why not? I thought to me that anyway no one is reading my SF, or no one is interested, or no one care, this point comes from my childhood when I experienced myself as alone where no one care about me.

                But anyway, if this will help someone, or if my SF will be inspiration for someone to step forward and try for himself/herself and utilize it, it will be cool.

                So I will publish my SF points, of course those which are written.  J

                Enjoy, thanks, Juraj

Consistency – Breathing - Ego

                I noticed interesting points within me, when and how I am loosing consistency in breathing during the day.

                Mostly, if I am in conversations with someone, lot of times I go into information and knowledge instead of sharing me in the moment. I have to change this, I have to be able to remain here no matter in which type of conversation I am in.

                Conflicts, last period in my life, maybe 3-4 months, are from certain perspective most conflicting period ever, and this is due to the fact, that previously I was scared to be in conflict and I tried to avoid this for any costs so lot of times I simply remained silent instead of speak. This changed and I see that speak directly without bullshiting lot of times brings conflicts, and I see that sometimes I am falling in this. Main point – ego.

Ego wants win in conflicts and once I lose my breath I am not necessarily escalating conflict for the purpose of ego to win and to be right. But this is nice bullshit because I tried for myself, in conflict to still remain with breath and I was able to communicate without changing voice tonalities, without that sense to be right or want to win.

Within that I found another interesting point, sarcasm. From ego perspective it is like hidden, that If I can’t win so I go into sarcasm, and this is nice bullshit also, because in conversation there is no need to win at all, it is just sharing, nothing more nothing less.

So, I need to be consistent within this and not allow myself to be led by the mind where I do not want to go.

Thanks, Juraj

Me and water – Don’t give up

             

                When we finished last round of race, and all competition has been finished, we decided to try to go into canal in reverse, against water jet and get to the beginning of the canal.

                If the water jet would be in original force we would not be able to even pass first bath, but when in water plant lowered water-level, it looked more doable.

                So beginning from down, first third of canal was really easy to pass as all baths and whirlpools as they lost the strength, second third made some problems to us, and some kayakers gave up to try to get to our finish, and in the last third, only 3 of us remained and there was last “ tongue “ created from water, the last point to achieve, to get through, but most powerful and most hard.

                As we paddled I noticed that my strength will not last much, as this was really hard part, I noticed the shouting from our couch from the right side as he has been screaming a lot on us to gave us some “ guts “ to make it.

    And he scream – Hop, Hop, Hop, Hop, and I paddle the fastest way I could and I am noticing that I am on the same place, I do not move back or forth in water jet but my speed is negated by water speed. The guy from my left is giving up and going on side, and me and my friend remained in frenetic paddling rodeo in water jet.

                I realized that if I will give up, it was worth nothing, just one moment, If I allow to give up and it will be done. I looked on right side, couch still screaming like mad and my friend giving up, going on other side and I remained alone.

                I become really tired, exhausted and I knew that if I will not do it fast in short period I will run out of my strength and will not be able to do it anymore. And as I still paddle in the water, suddenly I feel that kayak moved just tiny piece forward and I realized that it is possible to do it.

I didn’t want to give up, no way to give up, so I even made last strongest movements and I feel that I overcome with kayak the zero point and I move forward and I get through “ tongue “ and I did it.

Yes I did it, tired as hell, and cool was, that also my couch shut up and remained silent. He was maybe satisfied that at least one of his guys could do it, but I was really proud on me, not that I was only one, or that I did it, I was proud that I didn’t gave up.

Thanks, Juraj

Me and water – silent

                Some time ago, I was swimming at the lake, not too much, maybe just almost to the middle of the lake. I decided to go back, and as my condition is questionable I became little bit tired so I turn on my back and slowed down.

                Just only tiny movements I did, focusing on my breathing, on my tiny movements, in water, silent.  In that moment, there was nothing within me, just me and water. I felt nothing, no pain and no fear, no desires and no memories, no projections and no expectations, noting within me and I enjoyed the silence of me. My mind was silent, me breathing.

                In that moment, I was safe, it was like experience safety, like nothing can happen to me and nothing can harm me, nothing can move me, within me, and I enjoyed this moments.

                I would like to experience myself without anything within me each moment, as I was, it was just me and water.

Thanks, Juraj

Me and water – Calm and Wild

                 I went through strong water turbulence with my kayak called “ bath “ and after I get off from “ bath “ the protection around my hips which is placed to prevent water pouring inside the kayak was withheld and I saw that in my boat lot of water get in.

                I felt that kayak became hardly controllable as with such big amount of water in it became slightly sinking down.

                I realized that I will be not able to get through next water curves and “baths “ as the last part of the water canal was really wild so I wanted to get with kayak near waterside to get off successfully.

                But the water jet was stronger than my ability to control boat and I realized that I will not be able to even get to water side and that I have to go through last part of water canal and through all baths there and curves.

                So I was just able to made last maneuver to straighten the boat with the water jet but it was hard, almost sinking and as the protection was down I realized that I will not be able to go through as next bath will drown me down completely.

                Simply, at the moment I knew I will go under water with kayak as the water stream was to strong, at the moment I knew I will not do it, impossible in such circumstances.

                As I was in the middle of the bath the kayak became completely full of water and uncontrollable and the water starts to play its own game. I was just able to throw away paddle and prepare myself to get off from boat while I will be under the water.

                Kayak and I turned to right and I am in the water, not breathing, just cold and darkness around me. I just feel strong turbulences of water, I catch the sides of kayak with my hands and I want to pull out myself, but something is wrong. My legs stuck in.

                Also the position of the boat was not “usual “as the beginning of kayak remained stuck under some rock and the end was up, the fact that boat was full of water complicated all of this.

                I tried to fight the situation and involve as much power as possible, nothing happened, but I didn’t panic, I was prepared for such situations, not exactly this one but I practiced different ones before.

                Fast moments passing and I realized that I let my legs on sides of kayak so I couldn’t pull myself out so I straighten the legs and finally get off, how easy it was.

                I had to get at the water side which was problematic in such water jet but I did it, slowly moving myself on the ground with hands, legs, completely exhausted, tired, just breathing and sitting there.

                Nothing existed in the moment.

                I had to go two times more through that canal that day, but something happened within me, inside me. I started to feel strong anxiety within me, I knew that this experiences changes a lot.

                I lost the courage to go again, so I used all excuses possible to my couch to do not force me to go again. He didn’t.

                Next day I practiced on that canal, the maneuvers in the water and waves, I noticed something, the way how I approached it changed.

                I lost courage, I lost trust in me. The respect I started to put in the waves in front of me, and experience from previous day, where I created anxiety within me, was end of the sport I loved the most.

                Kayak on wild water, and me, I loved that, and at the same time I started to feat it. No one I told to, why should I, it was just me and water.

Thanks, Juraj

Me and water

                As a child, I had maybe 8-9 years, once I swam in the lake, not big one, but for me it was enough. Approximately in the middle of the lake, it was like losing power to continue, it became harder to control my muscles.

                It frightened me as I realized that if I’ll lose all strength I’ll drown. I saw people at the ground as people are tanning at the summer days and I wanted to scream on them and ask for help, but I even did not had strength to scream.

                So I realized that if I can’t ask for help and no one is around me to help me, it is me who have to help myself and it is me who have to do it and get all powers needed to get back on the ground.

                Thus I focused just only on that movement, on swimming, on muscles, breathe, nothing else. No fear, no useless anything, just me doing what’s necessary.

                I successfully get back on the ground, and at the same time I was really proud on myself, that I did it. No one knew this, no one I told to, why should I, it was just me and water.

                Thanks, Juraj

Just walk

                I’ve put off my shoes one evening, because walking in that shoes became problematic as that one has been broken, and I continued walking home barefoot.

                I noticed how long I didn’t walk at the ground just without shoes, yes sometimes near be lake while swimming but this was different, as this was regular walking some distance.

                And I’ve put my foot on the grass and I enjoyed the grass and next step and next, wet grass under my feet and I walked onto sidewalk and it was little bit warm as it was evening of summer day.

                I’ve continued and I focused on my breath and the touch I experience with my feet, and also focusing to do not step into some broken glass or something which could harm my feet.

                And it was just me, walking and enjoying this simplicity, focused but calm.

Thanks, Juraj