Television is perfect tool to
brainwash human beings into a zombie heads. When I was just a child, my favorite
movies was known as western, or those one where the story was placed to wild
west, where each time was someone as a hero, or a good guy, and others as criminals,
or bad guys, and obviously, the good guy as hero was always solving some issue.
Obviously, each time it was just
picture presentations of the mind as positive – good thus hero and savior, and
negative – bad guys those one which should be eliminated.
As a child I knew that in tv,
that there are movies, thus made up stories, but this knowing is simply
irrelevant, because as a child I reacted towards specific personas, once in
positive manner, other time in negative, and thus my self definitions, the
creations of my characters, ideas and believes about myself and world around
emerged and I was busy developing my imagination about myself and the life.
Within this, I did not realized,
I am trapping myself into realms of the mind, and I was absolutely not aware
why I react in positive or in negative manner.
But to follow the dogmas of
society, to made up personas as positive I had tendency to react positively and
create likeness towards them, and other polarity towards second ones.
Thus I perceive humans to be a
good, and evil. Simply, I split myself and my perception into a believe, that
someone is simply only good, or that someone is always bad.
As a child, I was absolutely
blind to very specific points to those made up stories, and thus I never asked
the questions – why this is made the way it is? Who is this persona presented?
What is the starting point for ones actions? What is going on behind these
pictures? What is this goodness? Or what is this evil? Why one is like evil and
other bad? Is this evil really evil or just self honesty of that persona acted
that way? Is this what looks like being good really goodness or it is the evil
in sheep cloak? What and who is liar? Is this lying bad? Why those people lie?
What directs them? Who is dictator and who is sheep or follower? Why they
directs themselves that way or do they?
Within movies, nothing is real,
everything of the movies are just made up stories of one’s minds, and thus
presented the way one’s mind wants. Thus, it is interesting, that because
someone imagine something, and present it specific way, I developed the
abilities to react positively or negatively, according brainwashing of my family,
to remain aligned within and as a system and develop myself into a system,
which was perfectly proceeded.
To react on someone’s illusions as
picture presentations, and thus define myself according it, create ideas or
believes, is perfect fuck up, deception of self and thus creation of living in self
dishonesty.
Obviously, I was looking upon plenty
of heroes in different movies and stories, and seeing the heroes as the one’s
doing a good things, but in fact it was never that way. Each and single hero
was equally evil to evil he fought, just polarity and thus fighting himself.
But, being good, or goodness, do
not exists at all, it is impossible, while one live in mind, thus good
diminished completely and entirely, as what is good is no more recognized, as
it is impossible for the mind, to determine what is really or what means to be
a good persona. Mind by itself, is a pure evil, as mind is made up of energy
and simply energy is that what hurts physical, abuse physical, and thus mind is
representation of evil in nature, as nature of the mind and the way mind exist
is abuse of physical and thus parasite on physical, as mind by itself can’t
exist without physical.
Interestingly, physical without the
mind is pretty fine, with mind it is always manipulation and abuse. And I thought
that to be a here is possible, that to be a good is possible, that to do good
things is ok, but nothing of this exists. And I was looking upon those who save
others, and I wished those bad guys to die. Thus, how can I be good? It is
impossible, it is not real, it is just made up illusion of my mind, to cover
the shits within me I created and allowed towards life and physical.
Each positive action, each positive
reaction, each positive energy, is just covering the shits of negative accepted
and created already and thus directing my life and living as me, in me, what I became.
Thus how goodness can exists,
when negative have to exists? Simply stop. Positive and negative, what will
remain? Just life.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to think and believe that any hero exists or
that someone is hero as a savior of someone, instead of see and realize that it
is impossible to save someone from the mind, as each one have to do this for
himself.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to think and believe that to save someone as an
act of positive thinking or doing as starting point as good or positive energy
is real good and real goodness, instead of see and realize that by this the
negative is already created.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to looking upon those who was presented to me as
a heroes and thus perceive them as good and create within me the likeness and
positive energy towards them, and react in positive attitude and those one who
has been presented to me as negative thus react with and as negative energy
experiences and thus accept and allow to myself to live the mind as system of
polarity as good and bad.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to think and believe that I can be a hero or savior
for someone, instead of see and realize that this is impossible.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to do not question the good and bad, but automatically
accept that what as been presented to me as good and reject that was presented
to me as bad.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to create within me the ideas and believe about
good and bad and thus participate in polarity of the mind as good and bad.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to enslave myself into a polarity of good and
bad, instead of see and realize that this is of the mind.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to act, behave and speak according my own judgment
of myself of being good or bad and thus shape myself, mold myself, to fit and
ingrain myself into and as a system of the mind.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to trap myself into believe that I have to save
someone.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to hide and cover the negative energy
experiences with positive energy and thus balance myself and experience of me
in believe that this energy experiences are real experiences of me, instead of
see and realize that those are of the mind.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to think and believe that hero is someone who is
good.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to react on pictures presentations of good and
bad accordingly.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to cover the evil of me as the mind as the
energy system I became to do not have to see how, when and why I abuse physical
and drain of the life force of myself as physical.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to think and believe that it is impossible that I
am killing myself by participation in the mind, instead of see and realize how
mind utilize the physical to drain energy from physical and thus sustain
itself.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to split people according brainwashing of
television into those who are good and those who are bad.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to align myself according ideas, believes and
projection presented to me through tv and thus accept and allow myself to live
in and as a system of the mind, as self defined, self limited, self trapped and
enslaved entity.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to diminish myself to such extent, that I believed
that pictures I see through my physical eyes are real instead of see and
realize that each picture I see is just interpretation of my mind about
physical, as an attempt to comprehend what it is what mind is looking on.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to take physical for granted.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to define myself according positive polarity of
the mind as heroes seen through tv and thus live in and as believe that heroes
are real and thus want to be a hero for someone also.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to think and believe that possibly someone can
be my hero.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to follow the idea and believe of being a hero,
or wanting and desiring to be a hero.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to not see and realize the energy play out
between good and bad.
Thanks,
Juraj
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