In my life, according the
brainwashing on all levels, I did things because of others, not matter if it
was family, friends, girl friends etc, it was always for and because of others,
and very occasionally because of me.
And thus, taking the points by
points, to see who I am and what I became, is point of taking the points back
to self, as everything and thus see and realize what I accepted to myself to
live as a programmed robot of this society.
I commit myself to take each
point back to self to bring self back here, into and as reality to become
trustworthy being standing for principle of equality and oneness.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to define myself according requirements, needs
of others of my actions and behavior and thus shape and mold myself because of
others, instead of see myself first as who I am, what I became and why and thus
give myself that chance to release myself from my own enslavement of the mind I
created to myself as protection mechanism in front of others.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to see me through the eyes of others and according
this shape myself and change myself according needs, requirements of others,
instead of see myself here, instead of live myself here and accept myself here
as who I am as life.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to shape, mold and change myself because of want
and need to please others to perceive myself as good and nice persona, instead
of live myself here within and as breath.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to hide myself behind the smile, as protection
of not showing what is going on within and as me to not have to face what I accepted
and allowed to myself.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to forgot myself and thus do not see myself and
thus live, shape and mold myself because of others, instead of breathe myself
here, stand up here, live here and direct myself here to change myself for real
in and as each point which exist within and as me.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to do not want to take points back to self, back
to me to do not have to face myself and the points I accepted and allowed
myself as living entity as the mind.
I forgive to myself that I have
accepted and allowed to myself to fear to face points I accepted to myself to
live, to do not be confronted with me as the mind, to do not have to see my own
fuck ups but rather pretend everything is fine and cool.
Thanks,
Juraj
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