Point came up, the money, my
perception of money and the value I am giving into money, and into myself
through the money, and within this judgment of myself because of not having
money, and thus not valuing myself as basically, I am without money, as this is
comparison with those who have more and not seeing the plenty less fortunate than
me.
It is also the point seeing my
through the money, who I am if I have money and who I am if I do not have,
seeing the world here as establishment of money and dictate of money, and thus
hidden anger, frustration, as why everything here in this world is basically determined
just only because of money?
Simply, we built this world just
only on one value, and this one value is money. Within money point I see coming
up many other points within my world, thus I will probably cover this in more
writings.
Why I sit here in cafeteria and
enjoy the coffee is just only because I have money to afford this. Thus the
very reason I can sit here, are money. The point why I can write this all on laptop
is only money as I work for company which provides me this money and this
resource. Why I have the shoes, trousers and shirt on myself are just only
because I had money to buy it. The reason why I can to spend time with writing
this is only money, as I do not need to be in some other job to work for money,
in meaning, that my spending for my living are less than my earnings thus I can
afford to spend time this way. The reason why I can enjoy myself here, are only
money as through this money I can “buy” time for myself, and thus “buy” the enjoyment
of myself.
I could continue with other
points, but as I see, everything is made up of and based on money, and money by
itself are illusion, as money have no real value as money represents debt. Thus
the very reason I am here, because I allowed myself to go into debt for my
living, where in the future I will have to pay back for that what I live, the
reason I am here, is because I allowed myself to use the debt of myself, the
debt of my living in illusion and for illusion as a debt slave.
Money are representation of
debt, illusion, made up story out of nothing. I made up my living because of
illusion and debt of myself, because I allowed myself the slavery of myself,
and through this, I dared to judge myself and diminish myself and not value
myself, as where I put value in my life are money, thus I put value into a
illusion and into a debt.
Nice fuck up.
I forgive to myself that I have allowed and accepted to myself to judge
myself as not having value, as not worthy and as not worthy and good enough as
a point of comparison myself with those who has more money and thus perceive
myself as not fortunate enough for living my life, and not seeing plenty of
those who have literally nothing and die in starvation each day and not seeing
those which live in horror and pain because they have no money and thus rather
wish to die.
I forgive to myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself to regret my life and not valuing myself as life
because I put value into money and see myself through money as debt, energy,
and slavery and thus I allowed and accepted to myself the slavery of myself
through debt and energy as money.
I forgive to myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself to judge myself as a point of seeing myself
through money and thus seeing myself through energy, illusion and debt of
myself as a point of what I will have to pay back into a future, how much
energy I will have to give back, how much illusions I will have to create back
and how much debt I will have to allow and accept to stop the slavery of
myself, not seeing and realizing that I created myself and my perception of
living within and as the point of have/not have money, and thus equally as a
point of having/not having the energy for my living and thus searching the
places, people, words, situations where and how I could get money/energy for
myself to sustain my living, not seeing and realizing that all of this is delusion
of myself and delusion of myself that I live.
I forgive to myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself to live and accept the system based on
energy/illusion/debt as system of value and thus valuing myself accordingly as
a point of comparison as how much energy/illusions/debt as money I can get for
myself and thus live my so called life.
I forgive to myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself to delude myself and my life with the money and
the amount of money I have, to enslave myself into a seeing myself through
money I have or I can get, and enslave myself into a thinking and living
accordingly money I can spent or use for myself and for my living.
I forgive to myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself to wish to win a lot of money, to wish to be
more fortunate as a point of changing my life if I would win a lot of money, as
a point of excuse that than I will change myself and change my living and
change my life.
I forgive to myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself to determine my self honesty through the point of
money and as a point of how much money I have, and thus shape myself, my
living, my words accordingly as how much money I can spend, instead of seeing
and realizing that this is self dishonesty.
I forgive to myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself to base my decisions only on money I have or I can
spend or afford, and not seeing myself as life as and only value which exist
but valuing myself through money I have.
I forgive to myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself to diminish myself, to regret myself, to judge
myself accordingly of amount of money I have, can get, can earn or get and not
living myself, not speaking myself, not standing up for myself, but shape and
mold myself according illusion, of money, debt of money, and energy as money.
I forgive to myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself to compare myself with others according the
amount of money I have and they have and thus exist within and as mind system
as comparison myself in separation from myself, thus I forgive to myself that I
have allowed and accepted to myself to be jealous on those who are more fortunate
and have more money and be jealous on life they can live and how they live as a
point of going into a work or not having go into a work as a point of amount of
money I have and they have and through this be dishonest within and as me, to delude
myself and enslave myself into living a mind, a system of energy and illusion.
I forgive to myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself to not see myself as life, equal with life, not
honor myself as life because of separation myself from the money, judging money
as bad, seeing money as evil and judging money as root of all evil, instead of
realizing that through this I am judging myself and living just as a zombie for
money and energy.
I forgive to myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself to separate myself from money through judging
money as bad, through judging the system as bad as the system is based on
money, thus judging myself as bad as I am within the system and participant in
the system, not seeing and realizing that through this very judgment I am the
problem why system of money exist this way, as I separated myself from the
money, judged them and desiring to have money and be jealous on those who have
more money.
I forgive to myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself to define myself according the amount of money I
have, according the money I can spend and the stuff I can spend money on, to define
myself according the debt/energy/illusion money represents and became the living
entity of definition of myself towards money.
I forgive to myself that I have
allowed and accepted to myself to fear to have money, to fear to earn a lot of
money, to fear to handle money as a fear of what or who I would became if I would
have those money.
I commit
myself to investigate how I defined myself towards money and stop living as a
zombie for money.
Thanks,
Juraj
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